Humiliation

The avoidance and resistance of humiliation is pride of not stepping into being human (in my experience). When I began my spiritual journey, I was very prideful, perhaps I still am, but I am working on it. I would say that humiliation is necessary in order to feel humility.

In the human experience we were given emotions and emotions when not understood can really trip us up in how we live our lives. For instance, as an example, if you have too much pride and you are unwilling to step into new experiences because you are too afraid of humiliation, you can become depressed, set in your ways and really not in a position to grow.

I have a story…recently I attended a workshop of a very famous spiritual teacher. I experienced humiliation on the 2nd day of the workshop first thing in the morning. I cried specifically about something that was brought up in the course. It felt humiliating. I went to my room, got undressed and decided to hide under the covers the rest of the day. Miraculously enough, I somehow found the strength to get dressed again and go back down for the rest of the day. I thought to myself, if I don’t do this, I will regret how I feel about myself and I just can’t do it. I got to get up. At the end of the course, I experienced yet another humiliating situation. The spiritual teacher was trying to get control of the room for an exercise that we were doing and I was compelled to yell and say the words “WAIT”. It came from the depths of my Soul and in the channel of my body and I was really really humiliated. But in that humiliation, I realized that I was awakening to empowerment. I was actually guided to sit with it, which I did, but not after a few embarrassing comments. After sitting with it, there was a distinct experience of judgment that I felt from the participants in the course. I was avoided like the plague. I felt small not belonging and really really judged. It was a terrible terrible feeling. I would say that it was ostracizing. But in my discernment of what happened, I actually felt safe in the truth that God was working through me to learn and to teach in that very moment. I was not only humiliated but empowered. It was a duality of emotions that was extraordinary. It taught me that just because this person is a famous spiritual teacher, it does not mean that their truth is the same as my truth, as we aren’t meant to be. That is why we are made the way we are with different experiences, different make-up. Our job is to discern what is true for us and what isn’t.

I would also say that in the spiritual community, there is a fear of stepping into relationships and into our karmic relationships because we are unsure of how to heal from these but we are always guided along the way. It is my experience that when we are brave enough to step into our karma, we can rebalance, and heal the pride that is really not doing this world any good. It’s just a matter of if we are able to manage the way in which karma comes up and how can we do that in a way that is not creating more karma.

I would say that when we resist our karma and our flow within our lives, then we are creating more karma. We are not clearing our karma, we are setting ourselves up for more difficulty in our future lives. The reason we step into our karma is to rebalance our spirits, rebalance ourselves, our patterns, our behaviours, the world, nature, all things. This is one of the ways of the spiritual journey, rebalance.

What I would say about this is we are all in this together. Not one person is more important than the other person and when we work on our emotional bodies and understand that we can move through these emotions and it is part of our growth as humans, then we have the ability to rebalance the imbalances in our world.

In my experience, it has been difficult to step into difficulty and difficult relationships, we all have choice, but at what cost. The choice to not step in, puts us in a state of isolation and quite honestly we need to be brought down a peg or two in the pride department. Pride is such a blocking, non-moving, non-conforming, uncooperative emotion or state of mind, that it is debilitating.

I have alot of comments on humiliation and I welcome you to visit my Podcast where I will dive in a little deeper to our emotion and resistance to humiliation and how to manage your emotional body and the emotion of humiliation.

With love and light,

Jackie