Growth

How do I want to be in this world?  I ask myself this question very often and it draws me to being a student of humanity, in all its complexities.  When I ask this I ask how do I step into being of service to others?

Currently I am in and out of at least 2 or 3 trainings at once, and I can tell you that it has been confusing.  I was guided to do these training sessions for my learning and growth.  What I can tell you is that being a sensitive, intuitive person has put me in each of these containers and seeing the right and the wrong in each of them.  The things that I like and don't like within each training.

But what it is showing me is that there is validity in each of them and that there are weaknesses in them as well.  I am certain that this is what they call a paradox.  The human condition.

Now although there is paradox in our human condition, I can see that my mind wants to make one wrong, one right and judge and throw out, move out of and make a move.  But is that really what I am suppose to do or am I meant to hold myself in the discomfort of learning how to be wrong and right at the same time for each of them?  To see the paradox and accept it?

Is this part of the human condition?  As I make my way through these courses, I feel the pressure of the container that I want to leave.  I feel that I want to leave it and I understand now that the pressure that is coming is for my own growth.  The pressure of pain, emotion, energy, whatever, it's coming and it will help me to learn more about myself, grow in resilience and how to hold on to my power.  Am I still learning this?  Absolutely.  Do I need to let go of fighting the growth?  Absolutely.  Do I need to love myself through the resistance?  Absolutely.  Do I need to accept this as the human condition?  Absolutely.  Will it guide me to more clarity as to my purpose?  Absolutely.

The nature of paradox is that it gives you the discernment of what you want and don't want and how you can feel both at the same time.  That in that struggle of paradox, the answers will come out.  But we need to get uncomfortable, we need to stretch, we need to go through pain, we need to change.  It's part of our role as humans. 

Think about what it takes for a chick to come out of its shell when it's born.  It has to struggle and fight to be born, to break that egg, to kick it open.  That is what we all do.  Plants, animals, humans, everything.  That is the way it is.  We can't ignore it or we won't grow.

How are you resisting the struggle in your life to grow?  How are you humaning better?  Are you stepping growing or staying still?

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