Fear of Living

It’s a thing….the fear of living.

It may explain our addiction to technology and our devices, our TVs, our electronics.  If we are afraid of death, are we just as afraid of living.

Has our technology made us Sheeple?

I was watching a documentary the other day about how we are programmed in our society through the school system, marketing, news, any number of ways to keep us from being free of the machine.

It’s the Matrix, people.  How do we wake up?  The answer, Mother Earth.  It is the only way that we wake up to the condition that we are in and how to reconnect.

The brain washed by alpha waves of the TV.  We are programmed to buy this gadget, that widget all in the name of happiness but we all know that that gadget and widget only give us a false sense of happiness for a short time and then we want the next thing.  I know I have been there and keeping up with the Jones is expensive and exhausting.

So let’s explore why we are afraid to live?  Not to lay blame but we have to question everything.  Did it ever occur to you how our school system was developed.  I am reading a book right now that speaks to a school system that was designed for the purposes of keeping the people programmed and controlled by the 1% or secret societies.  They are the richie rich.

So why are we afraid to live, because there are….or used to be consequences to colouring outside the lines.  We are programmed to stay in line, not make a fuss because you will get put back in line.  Usually by mental, verbal, emotional, physical and spiritual ways, ways of abuse.

I think we are in a time that we can unwind the programming that we received from a very young age probably even before we were born.  It isn’t anyone’s fault, it is just a life condition that can only be healed through the connection to Mother Earth.  The alternative way of programming has made us afraid of living.  Afraid of saying our truth.  Afraid of wanting our heart’s desire.  Afraid of succeeding.  Afraid of making mistakes.  Afraid of having our own thoughts.  Afraid of being peaceful, content, happy, joyful, playful, and in rich relationship.

You may be saying….not me.  I am connected and I am in relationship.  Okay but let me ask you this.  When is the last time you got up at 2:15 am and went outside in your backyard and sat on the ground?  And stayed in that position for at least 1/2 hour….without moving?

When we connect in this way, we are not only connecting with the rhythms of the earth which is nice and quiet, peaceful, and calm, we can sacredly observe the nighttime activity of animals, trees, the sky, the stars, the moon, the wind, the water, the earth.  When we connect, really connect, on the level of our spirit, we walk through the life condition of anxiety.

When I first started doing this, it took all my courage to go outside and sit in the dark by myself.  I was like…hell no….what about the animals that might attack me.  Well I am next to a field and the horses are standing there and I am sure they are thinking I am crazy.  Crazy for feeling fear of the dark, the night, the shadows.  But the more that I go into the dark, sit in the shadows, feel the night, the more the I am comfortable.  The more I am able to do it.  The more I face my fears.  The more I realize it’s a state of mind…..Back to the programming.  How did I ever become afraid of the dark?  What is wrong with the dark?  Is it the boogie man in the closet?  What a terrible story to tell children…..

So if I can be in the dark, then I must be able to live in the light.  I must be able to let go of this unexplained irrational fear and live.  It just feels like we have been so programmed to live according to the programming that it just makes us afraid to live.  Which is not our natural state of being.  It isn’t sustainable.  

If we have sustained trauma or abuse throughout our lives, then on top of this there is the programming.  We just need to get out from under it and allow love to shine it’s light on us so that we can live as we are intended.  With co-creation of all things in the light. 

Here is wishing you the abundance of your light, with joy, playfulness and lighthearted connection.

Warmly,

Jackie